Happy Chinese New Year to anyone who celebrates it. It is a time for change. To bring more luck into your life. I realized more how superstitious Chinese people are
We have to cut our hair to take away the bad luck. We need to clean the house to sweep away the bad luck. Kind of like, "Out with the old and in with the new." Well, it is time for me to take out the negative people in my life (like a staff person I have that is sucking the life out of me), and it is time for me to not be the "nice person."
Each year I slowly change to become a better person (I hope). But sometimes when I change and friends and family don't change with me, I lose people. It seems the more assertive I become, the more people I lose. But I realize those people that I lose, just don't really care for me. They use me and they are not used to me saying "no" to them. Those are the kind of people I do not want in my life anyways. I have always done so much for people and I realize that I get stepped on a lot. This year is time for me to be selfish
I may shock some people, but I really need "me" time. I was listening to a song called "Dead and Gone," and it really described me. One part of the lyrics stated, "The old me is dead and gone." I think I like the new me and it is time to say good-bye to the old me. I have learned many lessons along the way and I know some things about me people hate and get annoyed with, so I know I need to change that quality if I feel it betters me. There are certain aspects of my personality I will never give up no matter how it annoys people, and some parts I am willing to change. All in all, I know some people are looking out for me and are honest with me to make me a better person, like my husband. I may not like what he says at times, but I know I need to hear it. We both learn and grow together. If we did not, then the marriage would not last without some type of compromise. That is one of the things that took me time to understand. I always gave and gave and never learned to compromise in the sense where it helped two people instead of one. I never cared for myself. Other people always came first, and this is where it stops. Slowly I am understanding me and liking myself in my own skin. It took time for me to get used to some people hating the new me, but I realize not everyone needs to like you. So why try to please everyone? Because no matter how hard you try to please certain people, it is never good enough. Just please yourself and the ones you love and are close to (to a certain degree of course)
I hope the new year brings everyone luck, love, wealth, health, peace, and happiness. Remember to clean your souls and your closet. It is the year of the Ox, where we need to finish what we started. We will finally finish all our projects. This will be a very hard working year. I feel this is the year I will start doing what I always wanted to do. Wish me luck
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Even though change is a constant force in life too many people think that any change will be bad in some way. They desperately try to hold on, and in doing so stunt themselves.
We have to change to grow...
Take care... and good luck this year